In 2006 I started this blog with the intention of writing haphazard ramblings of my mind. It has since been 3 years and I find that living my life haphazardly has been rather confusing and difficult to get places. j/k 
I’ve actually always been inclined to set goals and strive to accomplish them but I never thought to make goals for seasons of my life. That is, not until, I wrestled with this season of singleness. I’ve learned along the way that life isn’t half-satisfying or half-complete because I’m not married. I’ve learned that my satisfaction is made complete in one man, Jesus Christ.
9 For in Him all the fullness of Deity dwells in bodily form,10and in Him you have been made complete, and He is the head over all rule and authority… (Col. 2:9-10)
More recently I have learned that a life consecrated to God especially in singleness is a Divine blessing from God. While I still wrestle with the desire to be married I’m finding that God is calming my desire and replacing it with the desire to build for him a spiritual family rather than a physical one. It is in being a mother in Christ Jesus through the gospel to those whom I disciple that I will find God’s purpose for my singleness. That by abiding in Him and growing the spiritual family he gives me that I will rest satisfied.
The fear of the LORD leads to life, and whoever has it rests satisfied; he will not be visited by harm.(Prov. 19:23)
I know that until December of 2009, I am to remain single in Tokyo as I finish out the ministry he has placed me in. After that, my season of singleness will be in His sovereign hands. I will strive to live consecrated to him but with an openness to enter into another season of my life at any moment. Not looking ahead but being satisfied in him where ever he has me. However, I have been learning that God is shaping me so that if there were ever an opportunity to enter the season of marriage that only a man consecrated wholeheartedly to the Father would do. By this I mean one that truly understands what it means to become a father in Christ Jesus through the gospel, just as Paul states in 1 Corinthians 4:15. A more thorough explanation can be found in my blog Single in Christ. All in all my goal is to strive to be the woman that God intended me to be and share my journey with you here.
